Do you often feel like no one cares? You may be in the room, but you get the feeling that no one notices that you’re even there. It hurts, doesn’t it? Are you one that desires for others to know who you are, but you can’t seem to cross that line of connection? To be honest, I feel that way too, at times.
I want people to know me.
I feel. I hurt. I laugh. I cry.
For me, I’m not crazy about small talk. I’m a “let’s get to the deep things” not the surface minded stuff. I’m a thinker. Maybe that’s the barrier I struggle against in a world that is only focused on the surface, while avoiding deep things. I can’t change my make-up. I can’t knit together a new me and be somebody I wasn’t fashioned to be. I have a purpose. God can (and does) chip away at the edges to make me a better me, just as He can and will do for all of us, if we allow Him.
I guess what I’m getting at is: we want to be seen. Not because of a selfish desire, but more as a desire to feel as though people actually genuinely care. We want to be known. There is a longing for that; built-in to the very fabric of who we are.
But when it gets down to the basics, the only One Who TRULY sees us, Who knows us intimately, Who made us in His image, is God Himself. He, alone, knows our deepest thoughts, desires, hurts, and intricacies.
God sees us! He sees you! He sees me! And we matter to Him. He notices us. He knows us. And most importantly He loves us.
In Genesis we see the story of Hagar, Sarai’s (Sarah’s) servant. In the account Sarai gives Abram (Abraham), Hagar because Sarai was barren and felt she needed to help God fulfill His promise to Abram that he would be the father of many nations. As a result of Abram’s acceptance of Hagar into his bed she became pregnant. However, Hagar had not been part of God’s original plan to give Abram many descendants. Abram and Sarah both sinned due to their actions and lack of faith, but Hagar also reacted wrongly by treating her mistress with contempt. Not a good triangle: contempt, jealousy, and blame! Sarai blamed Abram for the whole mess, but Abram put it back on Sarai, and Sarai made Hagar pay. We don’t know what Sarai did, but it was bad enough that Hagar fled. In her flight, Hagar was found by the *angel of the LORD. Hagar fled because she felt no one cared for her. How was she to fit in when her mistress hated her?
What a difficult situation she was in. She felt alone, rejected, and hopeless. But the angel of the LORD changed her outlook. First, He said she needed to return to Sarai and submit to her authority. This had to be a very difficult thing for her to do, considering the reason she fled. But then He told her something that gave her hope. Her child’s life would result in more descendants than she could number. It wouldn’t be all good, after all, the angel of the LORD said her son would be a wild donkey, a fighter/warrior, and would never be able to get along with his extended line of relatives. (And we see that open hostility even today as we see the open and obvious hate and contention of Arabs against the nation of Israel, and the Jews.) Not exactly the best sort of news, but Hagar did something new in her life as a result. She began calling God by another name, El Roi. She declared, “You are the God Who sees me” (Gen. 16:13).
That day she began to believe that she mattered, because the God who made her, actually saw her. He saw her hurt and her rejection, and knew of her need for hope. She was no longer alone.
He saw her!
He sees me and He sees you. He cares what you think. He cares how you feel.
You matter! Don’t loose hope. Don’t loose your joy.
Don’t loose hope! God sees you. He is your El Roi. You are not alone! Never!
*Many biblical scholars believe that the angel of the LORD is the pre-Incarnate Jesus Christ, the second person of the God-head, in the Old Testament, and I agree.